Thursday, June 4, 2015

Aiming at AAUT 7 edition

It has been a long time but I am still alive and running :)

To be honest it has been a tough year for me both work wise, the family life, physically and mentally. So many things have happened and there have been so many ups and down that I put running on hold for nearly half a year.

In February I decided that all other problems aside it was time to focus on me, myself and I again. So I made a new training scheme to get myself up to speed with AAUT 2015. I started with running a mere 30 km a week and my form was terrible. My 10 km time was 1:05'ish and I had to slow to a walk at time doing it. But I was OK with that and didn't cross the limit of was I was able to do. Doing that would likely have meant an injury. Every week I have been adding 10% to the distance and are now running 85 km a week. I will be doing that until the race start in about 4 weeks.

I have run with a couple of the other Danish runners a few times and I fell that my shape is OK. I certainly haven't been last yet but you never know how you react in the extreme heat of AAUT. All you can do is to prepare as good as possible.

I have sadly had a cold for the last week and I really feeling the runners low atm. but I hope to be out again tomorrow!

Btw. have you guys seen the new Garmin Fenix3 yet. Damn, I would love to try it. I have nearly bought it at several occasions but the price tag is a bit steep for me atm. I am looking for someone who would let me test it for a few runs if possible. If you have one that I can borrow let me know!

Thursday, July 24, 2014

AAUT 2014 - the spell was broken!

** disclaimer: this was all written by memory and not in my native language. **

So many things have happens since I've updated my blog but to sum it all up: I'm running again.

Around New Year my achilles problem was finally healed and I could start running again after months of ..non running. It also meant that I could start thinking about AAUT 2014 for real. As you might know my entry in 2013 didn't go as I had planned (read about it here) and even though I had aimed for a real race in 2014 the archilles break meant that my goal had changed to just f*cking getting through again (already did so in 2012). Getting through can be hard enough as many of the non finishers through the years will tell you. Unforeseen events like falls, heat problems, stomach problems and broken bones have stopped many runners. AAUT is a small race but is regarded to be in the top 50 of the hardest races in the world and even harder than the much more famous Marathon des Sables.

To be honest I felt much more prepared in 2012 and 2013 than I did this year. Recently I have had a lot late hours at the office and especially my distance training had suffered from it not to mention my hill training. Hill training in Denmark means running up and down the same 20-30-40 meter high hill again and again and again. Nothing like the 1 km high hills (mountains) we seen in Spain. Denmark is a _flat_ country.

Arriving at the hotel I noticed that nobody was sitting outside drinking beer. This was _very_ unusual and a clear sign that only very few of the usual suspects was racing this year. I arrived by bus with the regulars Graeme and Kirsty (racing since 2012) and the new kid on the block, Charlie. Another familiar face Roxanne was welcoming us in the once we entered the hotel, she like me had not finished it in 2013 and was back for redemption. After checking in and saying hi to all the new faces (Andy, Steve, Gunnar, Mario, Carolien aka Caren, Anna, Mark, Galina, Mick, George, Franck, Brendan, ...) we the oldies quickly went outside and had beer ... the balance in the AAUT universe was once again restored.

Graeme, Roxanne, Me and Kirsty

Worth mentioning is that should you need something, socks, gels, poles, clothing .. AAUT puts up a small shop in the hotel were you can make the last minute stockpiling.

Later that night Sonny (my fellow Dane in the race) and soon to be famous in the AAUT world Sonia arrived.

Sunday some of us went for the non optional run to the base of the first mountain and back. This year it was a little more eventful than is used to be. One of the runners decided to take a small spontaneous nap on the road. He had traveled for 24+ hours with next to no sleep and his body decided to draw a line in the sand. After some rest, food and a talk with the doctor he was fine and had a great week, but at that point in time it was a wake up call for all of us. This is the real shit.

Day 1 - the wake up

Monday morning it was time to start the race. A familiar face Angie (2012 supporter and 2013 racer) had come to see us off. I remember that in 2012 at one point on the long day where I was totally spaced out Angie had pulled up beside me in a car offering me cold beverage at that point I couldn't recognize her and started telling her about the race.. spaced out .. that is what the extreme heat will do to you. This morning I was my normal self and a familiar face especially Angies was a welcomed sight. She and her husband Tony are some of the nicest people I know. But generally AAUT _do_ bring a very special and very lovely crowd based on my experience.

.. anyway at 9:45 the race started and off we went. I felt fine until the first climb. It was a impressive ~9km 1000 m accent. I very quickly regretted not having spent more time doing hill training. My heart was beating at the same rhythm as a love struck rabbit having a good time. This was new to me and I didn't like it. In 2012 I was among the first to reach the summit, this year I was among the last. I blamed the missing hill training, the blood pressure medication and not bringing the poles (in 2012 someone (Fred) referred to me as the tac tac man, due to the sound of my poles sneaking up from behind). Using poles gives you an edge on the uphill sections .. if you have the proper technique. Once I reached the top a very smiling man, Adrian, was greeting me. This was his first year as a crew member and I didn't leave his checkpoint without giving him a few pointers howto improve his otherwise impressive hospitality (having spent 2013 doing checkpoints with a master of the trait (Big Phil) so I couldn't help it).

After that it goes more or less downhill until checkpoint 2. I did a fine mix of running and walking getting used to the warm weather. Phil, Linda, the doctor (Anja) and Eric greeted me at the checkpoint and after a short stop I went on. The path to checkpoint 3 includes a bit of tar road and at that point I was feeling strangely sleepy. I must have been bored by my own company. On top of that I was feeling cramps going up and down my spine possibly due to too much ice in my water bladder. I was also starting to feel sickness in my stomach. The spirit was high but I really really didn't feel like running and started walking more than I ran.

1 or 2 km before checkpoint 3 I was overtaken by Mario and Caren. They were all smiles and was clearly having a good day in the sun even though Caren had hurt her foot. At checkpoint 3 I was welcomed by Angie, Holly and Linda. I was a little cooked by now so the coke (cola) they served was niiice. It was my first coke since September 2013 so I enjoyed it a little extra. Now I was second to last but I really didn't feel like running too much and took it fairly easy for the rest of the way to the finish line. When I did run my lower legs erupted in cramps and I knew that it wasn't going to become an easy week for me. When I finally reached the finish all the familiar faces was there smiling and cheering. I shot a video of my leg cramps sitting by my tent .. scary stuff :)

Luckily AAUT has a massage option and the very skilled lady who did the massage was extremely efficient to get rid of whatever problem I had during the week. It hurt like hell when she did her magic but it worked and I don't mind even strong pain when I know it helps me in the end.

Let me give a shout out to Jesper who had come to greet us/me at the finish line but who missed me due to me spending too much time wandering around enjoying the scenery.

Night 1 is actually spent in a sports hall so even though we slept in our tents we still had a roof over our heads and nice toilets!

Day 2 - the semi long one

It started great. I felt sharp and had brought my poles. In 2012 I was among the leaders until checkpoint 2 so I started out as fast as felt sane. Legs felt awesome. I wasn't among the leaders but I felt I was certainly better placed than I had been the day before. Then a few km later on a dusty road I was greeted by a pitbull terrier standing in the middle of the road looking straight at me showing its teeths and making a deep sound letting me know that I wasn't welcome. I turned around and started walking back the way I came waiting for the next runners so we could pass it like a group. It didn't take long for Mario and Caren to arrive and when faced with 3 people the dog vanished. At that point we could see that the poor thing was limping :(

Shortly after I ran away from the group and was feeling fast and furious. Then I came to a single track and by a sudden strike of madness I decided to run up a long hill filled with loose stones. It took me forever and once I reached the top I was pissed that Paul had marked the route so poorly that I couldn't see where to run next. I decided to go left and while running up there I noticed the next runners arriving at the single track. A little later I noticed that none had gone up the hill and had instead continued ahead. I shouted down to Caren and she confirmed my mistake. Doh .. I had to go back down. It took a while and once down the pink markings was clearly _noy_ pointing me up the hill. I was rather pissed with myself and did no longer feel awesome. By my calculations I was now second to last.

Once I arrived at checkpoint 2 I was greeted by Mario and Caren who left it as I entered. This checkpoint was run by Phil and Linda. As I left it Gunnar entered it and I was glad to know that he was making good speed but also a little troubled by the fact that it meant that I was very close to be the very last. Not that it really mattered but it was such a big contrast to my run in 2012 that I was a bit scared of how much this blood pressure thing had actually affected my running. All the way to checkpoint 2 was a mixed run with Mario and Caren ahead of me or behind me. I saw Galina 200 meters ahead of me at some point but never caught up with her.

At checkpoint 2 I was greeted by Holly, the doctor and Eric. Mario left the checkpoint a little ahead of me but Caren had decided to call it a day. At this point I felt shitty. I felt slow, my stomach was giving me problems again and the heat was kicking in. The path between checkpoint 2 and 3 it as very technical single track known as the goat track. I quickly got lost for the second time and had to reverse my track to find the correct path again. When I did this section in 2012 it was the most technical path I had ever 'run'. This year it gave me far less problems but the heat was immense and the climb was tough. At one point I was really cooking and to my horror I found out that I had dropped my bottle with pure water. This was the bottle I used to cool down the head and feeling the heat like I did I knew that I couldn't go far without it (I got long thick hair). I had to slow down and sit in the shade every few meters as I went uphill. When I finally reached the top I had come to the conclusion that when I found the checkpoint I would drop out.. I was really really cooking inside and running another 18 km in the sun didn't seem reasonable at the time. To my luck a car approached me and inside it was Eric and the doctor. They had water in the back and I quickly used 1-2 bottles of it to cool down the head and body. Ahhh .. no longer cooking I could focus on running again.

I quickly meet Kirsty who had gotten a little lost herself and had used far to much time wandered the hills up and down. We entered checkpoint 3 together and was greeted by Adrian and his son. They gave me an empty coke bottle to use instead of my lost one and off I went. The coke bottle was a little big and heavy though so when I ran I had to hold it to keep my west from jumping around. It annoyed me a little but it was far better than the alternative. I kept Kirsty in my view for a few km but little by little she got further and further ahead of me and when we reached the bottom aka the long dusty road she was 'gone'.

2.5 km of really really dry fine dust

At this point I was relaxing a little too much. Having nearly called it a day and with nobody to race I started focusing on conserving what energy I had left. I did run a little but could possibly have run more and walked less. When I say walk I mean a speedy march at around 8-9 min / km. At the end of the road and after a little uphill I was greeted by Paul who took this little picture of me as I crossed a stone fence feeling strong legged at the time actually.

2 km later I was greeted by Phil in the middle of nowhere. He had actually gone out looking for me wondering why I hadn't arrived yet. He is awesome so I was a little sad to leave him behind but I wasn't in a mood for a walk at the time and he wasn't really a match for my running. Just before checkpoint 4 there is a little water crossing where you are bound to get your feet wet unless you take off your shoes. I tried for half a sec to take of the shoes but could feel a cramp building up so I just ran through the water instead and sat down at checkpoint 4 where Linda greeted me. Mario had just left it and even though I was tempted to try to catch up with him I felt more like sitting down for a few minutes and having some cooold coke :) Paul arrived and took this picture as I sat there. I found out that Gunnar had called it a day so I was now last (3-4 had called it a day at that point).

I was not feeling as bad as it looks ;) I was adjusting the buff.
From checkpoint 4 to the finish line I felt great. I did a mix of running and marching. Legs felt fine and with a cool head everything seemed great. I was a little sad by being last but it was what it was. When I finally reached the finish I realized how many had called it a day and that I was only last by a few minutes. The youngsters at the finish line were awesome btw. A young man with glasses made sure I had every I needed. I believe his name was Sam.

The poor massage woman had to work till 9 PM that evening. I know cause I was her last 'patient'. She once again did her magic and my main problem of the day was a sore knee specifically tractus iliotibialis which she fixed through some _very_ painful but very efficient massage and some shoulder problems. The later was fixed by a mix of again _very_ painful massage and camphor lotion that she applied for the night. She was extreme good at what she did.

I hadn't been able to eat my gels / food that day so when Sonny and I went into town that night at 9:30 pm the meal at the La Bar (chicken, chips and a large beer) was very tasty and felt great in the stomach.


Day 3 or as they call it ..the easy day

The day started with a 10 km tar run. My legs felt great but I had started with an nearly empty water bladder so when I started feeling the heat I slowed down a bit. Sonny and I teamed up within a few km from the start. Sonny was having some serious cramp problems that had started the day before and wanted to call it a day at checkpoint 1. I tried talk him into giving it another go since I know from experience that most of our problems are only phases that have a beginning and and end. Holly and Gunnar was crewing checkpoint 1 as I remember it. Sonny didn't want to go further so I left him there.

The next section included a long uphill that ended at a landing field and next to it was checkpoint 2, run by Phil and Linda. At checkpoint 2 I found Mario and Caren who was running again. I could feel a hot spot developing on one of my feet so I took the time taking of the 2 socks (liner + compression) and fixing it with some Vaseline. While I was doing that Galine arrived and left and when I was done Sonny had entered the checkpoint as well. He stated _very_ clearly that now he was done and that he called it a day. I tried to convince him to give it a few minutes and think about it. But he had made up his mind. At that time I was ready to go so off I went with Mario, Caren and Galina in the horizont.

I had remembered the next part as being more or less flat followed by a long downhill but in reality there was quite a long gentle climb before the downhill section started. I felt awesome but had mixed feelings. Should I go full throttle or should I save the energy to the next day aka the long one. I mostly did the later. When I arrived at checkpoint 3 I was greeted by Adrian and his son. Mario and Caren was still there as well. I think I entered the checkpoint singing and all in all I was feeling great. Mario and Caren went on their way. Once I had filled my water bladder and alike I too went along.

I passed Mario and Caren on the top of the next climb and never saw them again that day. To be honest I had a hard time not going full throttle so most of way to the finish I ran fairly fast ignoring the fact that it was meant to be a recovery day. 800 meters before the finish I saw Galina 200 meters ahead of me and I simply couldn't help giving it all I had. I ran past her at full throttle and once I crossed the finish line I had to throw myself on the ground completely cooked but very happy about the day and how the legs felt.

Problems of the day. A tiny blister that the doctor drained. I had hoped she would inject it with something that would completely dry it out but I couldn't remember what the liquid is called and she clearly didn't think it necessary. Didn't really have any specific problems for the massage woman to fix so she just gave me a run through .. which was painful enough but left me feeling great.

That night we had the best paella of the 3 years I had attended the race. I had 2 large servings and a cup or 2 of beer :)

Everybody was thinking about the day to come. Day 4 is nearly 70 km long with some serious climbs and extremely hot and unprotected. We were divided into 2 groups for a staggered start. The slowest would start at 8 AM and the fastest at 8:30 AM. So off to bed to get ready for an early start.

Day 4 - the long one.

I had made one change in my setup compared to the other days. A change that would make a real difference to me. I had added a flask more around my waist. In this I used some High5 tabs. Until day 4 I had only used water and gels. The race started and Eric ran with us for the first 3 km showing us the way to the first climb. Ahead of me was Roxanne and Anna. Roxanne was running really fast like a bat out of hell. She was the fastest in the slow group and day 4 was where she had been forced to quit the year before due to a stress fracture in the foot (which she had gotten on day 1 aka 100 miles / 160 km earlier!!). My legs felt great but once again I started thinking about 2012 and how I had been first at both checkpoint 1 and 2 on day 4. I had burned the candle in both ends that year but still I didn't like not being in front. When we reached checkpoint 1 I had been passed by Kirsty and Mario. Holly and Gunnar was running checkpoint 1 and Gunnar was very generous with the ice in my case. Thanks Gunnar! ;)

The next stretch took us around a very beautiful lake. My legs felt awesome but my head started to give me problems as people kept passing me from behind. Charlie who was leading the race had passed me after a mere 10 km. In 2012 the leader(s) didn't pass me until ~24 km. I felt under powered again and my mind became my worst enemy. I kept asking myself why aren't I running, I don't know I replied and so I ran for a little only to slow to a walk a few hundred meters later. More people passed me and I got more and more frustrated so I decided to call it a day once I would reach checkpoint 2. With a mere 1 km to the checkpoint I gave it full throttle and ran like a bat out of hell and was greeted by Eric, the doctor, Sonny, Andy, Phil, Linda and Mike (an English ultra runner crewing this year) They were clearly impressed with my running entry but I said to them that I was out.

To my surprise no one tried to talk me out of it. Andy said, that he too had called it a day and Mike offered to drive me to the finish. The doctor said is was a shame. All in all I became a little pissed .. sorry but I did ;) I have always told people not to give up when they entered a checkpoint and only do it on your way out. Why didn't anyone say the same to me? I had also thought that I was the last at that point but I could hear that at least 2 runners was behind me. My problem was in my head I knew that. The sprint to the checkpoint had proved that my legs was more than ready. So I changed my mindset. I was going to continue and by that I meant to the finish. I told them that I needed 5 minutes and called out to Eric that I was going to continue. He told me that the next part was a very tough 7 km climb. I told him that I knew that and as soon as my gear was ready I went ahead. The last thing I remember I said when I left was to Sonny: "It is all in the head".

From that point on I felt awesome. The 7 km climb felt like a piece of cake. As I got close to the top I could see Kirsty and Wendy a little ahead of her. I knew then that my legs were indeed great. At checkpoint 3 I was greeted by Adrian and his son. Wendy was there as well as Kirsty. They left before me though. Looking on my pace climbing the hill I noticed that even going uphill my speed was still faster than the cut off speed of 6 km/h. This gave me the idea that if only I could keep going at that speed for the rest of the day I would safely be able to complete it. And so I did. I ran once in a while when I couldn't help it but most often I simply sticked to my plan.

I ran the last 2-3 km into checkpoint 4 at 40 km into the race and felt awesome. Mark arrived there a few minutes after me. At checkpoint 4 I was greeted by Eric, the doctor, Caren and possibly one more ;) The doctor (Anja) and I had a little talk about what had went on at checkpoint 2 .. in German to her delight ;) I left feeling much better that I had in 2012 at the same checkpoint. A few km's later Mark caught up with me. He is a great fellow and I like him as a person but I felt that I had to tell him that I wasn't really a great chatter when I ran trying to keep my focus. He luckily replied no problem nor was he ;)

We teamed up for a few kilometers until we had to cross a water junction. To be honest hadn't Mark taken off his shoes I would properly have gone through it with shoes and all but seeing Mark taking the extra time to actually taking off his shoes and socks convinced me to do the same. I am glad that I did. The feeling of the cold water on the hot feet was freaking awesome!!! Mark took a picture of me having taken that first step. You can clearly see how much I enjoyed it. Sadly I don't have that picture to show you .. yet.

Once crossed I had to take some time to get the feet covered with Vaseline again and putting on the 2 socks (injinji liner and the compression outer sock). I love the combination but it takes some time to get on. Mark was faster and we separated again. After that followed a looong dusty uphill climb to checkpoint 5. By now I had run out of the High5 tab that had kept me going all day (had had no gels) and I was looking forward to the coke at checkpoint 5. When I finally saw the checkpoint I ran to it a little tired but still feeling awesome. I was greeted by Phil, Linda and Sonny! Mark was also there. I was told that Roxanne had just left the checkpoint 14 minutes earlier and I knew then that something was wrong. She is much faster than me and should have been way ahead of me at that point.

Then it happen ..... My eyes saw what was in front of me and I burst out .. "Who the fuck buys Zero at an Ultra!!!" They were serving Cola Zero. Mark replied dryly ... "I was thinking the same thing". I am very sorry for Linda and Phil who was running the checkpoint for the remark that I made, but I heard a number of other people marking the same remark the next couple of days ;) AAUT has the best crew imaginable let there be no doubt! At that point of the race I just wanted sugar, everybody do. That is why they serve Cola at the late checkpoints. I had some sweets instead :)

Mark left ahead of me. The way from checkpoint 5 to 6 is fairly easy and fairly uphill until it is not. Then after 11-12 km there you have checkpoint 6. At checkpoint 6 I was greeted by Adrian and his son plus Sonny and Linda who had passed me by car.

Checkpoint 6 - Me and Sonny
I was feeling great and had had a nice run into the checkpoint doing the helicopter (with the poles). Mark was also there but left soon after. I had some great oranges and soon after I went out for the last stretch with only Anna behind me. I don't know how many had dropped out that day.

From there it is about 9 km to the finish. The first year I did this my feet was covered with blisters and the very steep downhills on the last 9 km was really killing me and I was really pissed. This year I knew what was coming and enjoyed the scenery and not having blisters worth mentioning. When I finally reached the lake I meet Paul a few hundred meters from the finish. Hey cool, I thought when he started running, lets race! My legs was feeling awesome and I overtook him in no time .. but then he shouted that he was the one who should the finish line picture, so I stopped and waited for him to get into the car and waited a little longer for him to arrive at the finish. THEN I hit full throttle and ran like a very happy bat out of hell to the finish line followed by Eric in a car honking his horn. Awesome.

I only remember one greeting though a lot of people greeted me but I was high on endorphin and adrenalin. The greeting I remember was Mike's: "You are a legend!" I felt really good sitting down after having done what I had dreaded all week and having made the come back after checkpoint 2 .. My time was safely within the allowed time frame and I done what I set out to do. However looking up I saw Roxanne and she was really battered. She was still sitting in a chair in at the finish wearing her race gear. Her feet was a mess and she was pale as a ghost. I had had a walk in the park compared to what she had been through. She had been developing a cold since Day 1 and combined with other problems .. everybody was impressed that she got through.

That evening I think most of us thought about Roxanne.

I didn't have a massage. Didn't needed it.

One thing I must mention as well. We dinned at a place called Restaurante Asador Pato Loco. If you ever go there have a steak! I did and it was the best steak I have ever had!! If yours isn't as good then go for at 67 km run in the hills and try again.

Day 5 - It is only a marathon.

Again a staggered start. Legs felt awesome. I teamed up with Sonny who was running again. He was faster then me though so he went ahead and I never saw him again until the finish. The rest of the day was spent in the company with Roxanne who I teamed up with right after checkpoint 1 and later Mark who joined the group after checkpoint 3. To me it was an very easy day. My shape had gotten better and better through the week but sometimes there are things more important than running and day 5 was such a day. Everybody made it through day 5 even the one who had suffered the most. Roxanne went directly into an ambulance after having crossed the finish line. Later that evening when finally back on her feet she got a standing applause when she entered the room. If you wonder why check this picture.

Paul, Roxs and the doctor

This is how you look when you have given it all you had and then some. Roxanne might be the last to cross the finish line this year but she was still one of those who made the biggest impression on people. Another amazing woman this year was Sonia Furtado as I mentioned in the start. She became the first woman to the win a stage. Not only did she win one stage she won 2 and was only a handful of minutes from winning the race.

Didn't have a massage, didn't need it. Did have a large beer and a hamburger though!

you can't see the beer .. but it was there :)

That night I felt fulfilled. I had done what I came to do. My time had been shitty but I had made it through once more. I had broken the spell of 2013. But not 24 hours went by before I started thinking that it had been too easy. I hadn't pushed myself nearly hard enough. In 2012 I had raced myself as hard as I could (read about it here) and had lost 3 nails and had 8 blisters to show from it .. in 2014 I had one tiny blister and finished the race in better shape than I started. AAUT 2015 suddenly got a purpose.

Pictures by Paul, Linda, Graeme, Mark and me (Sorry for not asking, I'm a bandit I know). Thanks the crew behind AAUT, management to volunteers you all rock!! Thanks to my fellow runners this year for being fucking awesome! Thanks to all the people who supported me and the other runners on Facebook, Skype and more. Thanks to my family for giving me the possibility to do this year after year.

Sunday, November 24, 2013

Since last ..

It has been a loong time since my last update. Here is what has been up. Right after AAUT I went into a training frenzy I trained 1-2 times a day 5 days a week. I needed to feel like I did something other than taking pills for the blood pressure. I felt like I was in the shape on my life and had nothing to do. I've read about people training for a race that was cancelled in the last moment. I guess this was kinda how they felt like.

Within a few weeks I could fell the medication making changes to my body. My maximum heart rate was soon lowered by 10-15 beats per minute and I was getting slower and slower. It took a few break downs, one of these after only 2-3 km, before I learnt to run in this new body of mine. I felt really gutted but I learned that keeping my heart rate below 150-160 bpm would allow me to run the same kinda distances that I was used too but going above 160 would burn me out instantly.

Eventually I started getting fast again and I joined a small group of people running a each Monday night in the dark in some awesome trails. This reboosted me and helped me see that I, even on medication, had a future running.

Sadly one evening 3 - 4 months ago, before a trial training session I had an stupid garden accident which left me with pain in my right achilles tendon. Stubborn as I can be I ignored it for a month or more still keeping my training regime going. I had gotten my speed back and I wasn't about to take a break. But it grew worse and worse and soon I was limping badly. I decided to run just one more marathon before taking a break. 'Luck' would have it that I also got a cold and a fever but I still insisted on running. I became dead last (5 hours and 11 minutes). The next couple of days was spent sleeping and sweating buckets.

I didn't run for 3 weeks after that. I had hoped for the pain to go away but instead the achilles tendon grew stiffer and I was limping even more.

I started running once a week and it gave me a relief for a couple of days afterwards but on the third day it would return worse than before. I kept this going for a few weeks until running simple became a pain from start till end and I knew it was time to stop and seek some help.

Soo .. I've been treated by a physiotherapist and have been doing a lot of eccentric exercises. They have worked wonders. I've also been scanned. It showed that I had partially ruptured the tendon but due to the rest and exercises it has almost healed up by now.

Now I'm almost ready to run again but my family have stated that they like having me home so I'm not sure that I'll head for the ultra running distances right away plus trail running has really kicked off in Denmark so it might be time for me to try something else .. less crowdy.

Friday, July 19, 2013

AAUT 2013 -> 2014

** disclaimer: this was all written out of memory days after the event ended. I will very likely be wrong about the details. I will include no names but the people involved knows who I am talking about **

The training for AAUT 2013 started a year ago when I bought my first pair of minimalistic shoes NB MT10 to start embracing the forefoot running style that was my natural gait but I that had tried to avoid thinking 'heal striking' was _the_ optimal way to run. AAUT 2012 had resulted in some nasty blisters for me so I really wanted to reboot my running (style, shoes and all).

The instant I tried them on I knew that these were the kinda shoes I wanted to run in at AAUT hopefully to avoid the problems from 2012. It took me ~3 weeks to get used to them and being able to run in them on stony tracks without getting my feet all bruised. I even became a certified Pose running instructor during this year of training.

Every run I have made since then has been with AAUT 2013 in mind even my 100 mile attempt on Bornholm.

My training for AAUT 2013 was a lot different from my AAUT 2012 training. I had concentrated on a lot more technical trail running and speed work with only the occasional very long distance run. I was a bit nervous about how it would turn out but I had broken every personal record I had tried to in the weeks up to the race including my marathon PR (without even trying).

So I arrived at the Hotel in Loja with a smile on my face, really happy to be back and looking forward to this years adventure. My target time this year would be 30 hours which I felt was very realistic. At the hotel I hooked up with my friends from 2012 and it felt like we had never been apart. Awesome people from around the world!

I had forgotten to have my medical check made at home so the day before the race I had to go see the doctor. My first check revealed my blood pressure to be a little high and I had to come back for another check later. Hmm .. that wasn't what I wanted to hear at that point. I wanted to relax with my friends and be checking my gear. I still had 16 kilo of stuff that needed to be repacked into 10 kilos to meet the rules of the race. I couldn't relax and when they rechecked my blood pressure it had gone higher. Now I was faced with the sentence: "we can't allow you to race." WTF?!! I tried to explain that I had seen it that high before and it had never been a problem, that is was probably due to stress, the heat, the salt caps I had taken and so on .. I couldn't believe the bad timing of this problem to show it self. We agreed that they would try to get me a self monitoring device to see if it was lower when I was relaxed. It wouldn't arrive until the next morning but a talk with the race director assured me that I would be allowed to run anyway. I might just had to sign some papers. The only thing that should stop me from running was if the doctor felt it was a matter of life and death. At last some relief. I had dinner and the prerace briefing with the other runners.

Then I started getting ready for the race, packing and getting my race gear ready for the next day. I went to see the race director to get the final GO when the doctor caught me in the hall way. He wanted to take my blood pressure one more time... Okay .. I thought we were past that now but .. okay. He measured it and became _very_ serious. To make a long tail short I was rushed to the local hospital and later the university hospital in Granada by ambulance 100 km away. My blood pressure had reached 220/120 which even I knew was very serious and was potentially lethal .. had I gone running.

I spent the night being checked: EKG's, blood tests and stuff like that. Nothing was out of the ordinary except that my EKG showed that I was an 'ultra athlete'. Once they had found some medication that worked I was released and went back to my hotel in Loja. I arrived just in time for seeing the race start with tears in my eyes. The race director told me that whatever I wanted they would help me with, awesome people! They helped me pick up my medication and after that I slept until woken by a phone call many hours later. It was the race director. She asked me if I wanted to fly home or if her mom should pick me up and drive me to my friends. I soo wanted to see my friends.

I was picked up and arrived at the finish line to greet my 'old man' from New Zealand, who had had a bad time with cramps that day. He told me that he had been screaming in pain after having crossed the finish line and I felt lucky that I hadn't been there to hear it. Most of the runners had already left for the campsite and I decided to walk there (1-2 km at the max). The race director had checked me into a small place with a real bed so I could get a nice night rest, thank you! :)

The walk was nice and even though I was tempted I didn't run. Once I arrived I talked with my friends told them what had gone on with me and asked them how they had been on the first stage of the race. Generally people had had a nice day with the occasional problem. Most serious would turn out to be a runner who had hurt her foot due too landing hard on a rock running in nothing but my favorite shoe the NB MT10. She had been in second place at the time but had had to slow to a walk due to the pain. I also started hearing that one of the checkpoints really needed some help. The people at the checkpoint had shown no experience with what runners needed it such conditions (which would be much better at day 2 and forth were they had obviously been better instructed).

Since the doctor had been very clear that I wouldn't be able run this week .. I decided to volunteer for some checkpoint duty. The next day I would team up with one of the most experienced persons and together we would run checkpoint 3. I looked forward to that. Checkpoint 3, stage 2 is a tough one. You have no radio contact and people will reach you after having run a difficult single track section. Last year I believe 3 bags of I.V. was given at that checkpoint.

Had a shitty nights sleep but I guess that was only to expect. Next morning I had a small breakfast with the doctor and a good friend from the crew. We arrived at the start to wish the runners a great day in the sun. As the race began I once more had tears behind those sunglasses of mine. These people was doing what I had come to do.

Me and my crew mate set off to our destination and quickly everything was in place and ready for the runners to arrive. Once the runners started coming I felt useful again. Every runners I saw coming got a cheer and if I could recognize them or spot their name it became a personal one. As a runner I know how nice it is to see a friendly face and know that someone is out there waiting to see _you_ arrive! I asked them right away: 'What can for you?', 'Cold towel?', 'Do you want your cap the the cold water?', 'Wanna sit?', 'Want ice in your bottles?', 'Want me to add electrolytes as well?'. Making sure that only the right amount of electrolytes was added to the water so it would not taste like saltwater and be useless for the runner. Everything done as quickly as possible to allow them to continue right away if that was what they wanted. Never standing waiting but seeking them and asking what I could do to help them. Also I made sure that they knew what was coming, not just the distance to the next checkpoint but also the path there. "It will go uphill for a few km, then you have a nice downhill stretch follow by a long straight dusty road ..." I didn't want people to hear any false or vague information they deserved the facts as precisely as possible. Every time I had a person successfully through the checkpoint my mood would rise. Seeing people that I knew already or that I knew had been struggling made me even happier. Happy to see that they were still in the game. This was me and my crew mate's version of 'Cheers' and everyone of them should feel like 'Norm'. This was the second best thing I could do in this race and it felt awesome!

The rest of the week I stayed on checkpoint duty doing my best to help my fellow runners and the feedback they gave me was priceless. I restudied the course videos to give the best info possible I wanted the best possible race experience for these runners. I had hit rock bottom Monday morning but they had helped me just as much as I had helped them. Every evening someone came and told how glad they were to have me at a checkpoint .. priceless!

I saw many runners in pain, giving all they had to go on. A young man who couldn't bend his knees when he left my checkpoint on day 3 but tried to fight his way up a hill until he had to buckle. A young girl who it turned out had broken a bone in her foot on day one but still fought her way through the race until 30 km into day 4 (which totals 100 miles / 160 km!!). Having reached my checkpoint she was sadly pulled by the doctor after having fought her way up a crazy hill. She was simply risking to do permanent damage to herself which could mean that she wouldn't be able to run ever again. She personally never gave up. Saw a runner nearly purple from running in the sun for more than 8 hours at the time with no or too little sun block on. She roasted out there with her feet in pain but still carried on to the end. Saw a man who had vomited and who had been running on empty for hours but who managed to pick him self up and made it all the way to the finish line getting faster and faster. I saw so many strong runners, so many strong people, so many strong stories that I couldn't help feeling in awe. I felt very proud to be able to help these men and women even if only a little.

The last day of the race arrived and after doing my checkpoint duty with some of my fellow DNF runners (and dear friends) I spent most of the day waiting at the finish line waiting for people to come in. Remembering how I had felt last year when I had crossed that line. Some of the people I care most about told me some really wonderful things at that line, thank you very much.

After the race had ended there was the after party and the always returning question: 'Will you be back next year?'. Well I knew I wanted to. Besides the fact that AAUT is a great race with great crew I had unfinished business but I also knew that I wasn't coming back again just to let history repeat it self plus there is always the question of $$. I would have to give it some thought.

Officially I left at 4:00 AM the next morning but part of me was left behind. Now a week later I have signed up for AAUT 2014 and this time I will take on the race not just myself. My blood pressure is 'perfect' and my training have been upped to 2 sessions a day, feeling stronger, faster and more focused than ever. I know I also got some mental training to do as well. I look forward to seeing those of my friends again who has already or who will decide to come back as well.

This weeks favorit running song: Nightcall by Kavinsky & Lovefoxxx

Monday, May 6, 2013

The Hammer!

I'm starting this post with noo idea of how to express what I experienced this weekend participating in the Hammer Trail 100 mile race.

It has been one of the best weekends of my life.

I traveled by train and as soon as I sat down I was questioned about the Danish flag I wore on my race jacket which lead to a great conversation about ultra running and life in general.

Later waiting for the next train I met a sweet couple, Jan and Lena, also on their way to Bornholm to take part of the 25 km part of the race. We also had some great talks on the ferry to the island and they later showed up showing their support during my race. Even though around 50-60 years old (Sorry Jan if my guess is totally off) Jan was still a fast runner and could probably give me quite a match should we go head to head on a trail. It would be Lena's first 25 km trail run. Both did excellent, btw!

I had a room at a place named Tine's Gjestehûz which is hosted by the sweetest persons that one can imaging. The hospitality and service .. was outstanding. If you are going to Bornholm, please consider staying at their place! I was joined later that day by SLG. We talked a little about nutrition that night. I had b(r)ought a lot and divided it into small bags based on the rule that I wanted to eat about 300 kcals per hour which is more than double what I normally do but I wanted to make sure that lack of energy/kcal's wouldn't be what stopped me. Anything I hadn't bagged was offered to SLG and she grabbed a little and the the next morning grabbed a little more (rather safe than sorry! :)

Lots and lots of energy! The Bloks really rocks!

My Race setup for the first 35 km

Next day we met before and after breakfast and talked a little about the last details. Later Tine drove us to the start (did I mention how sweet she is!!) and gave us her number: "If you need anything give us a call!!" .. Outstanding!!

First thing we went through was the gear check. Everything was in order except that SLG had lost some of her extra batteries. Luckily I had brought extra extras which I gave her. Then a quick look around revealed a bunch of familiar smiling face .. Tomas, Moses, Peder, Dan and later my good friend Kåre. Great company! Everybody was in a great mood. Dunno about other sports but in ultra running strangers helps / talks to / smiles to strangers. 

SLG and I doing a silly pose for Dan

Soon it was time to start the race and Jan and Lena had come to cheer me on (thank you!!). First we set out on a prologue which was about 7 km around Hammer light house. Lots of bedrock and steep hills with the occasional fine sand. I had walked this part the day before and had concluded that I wouldn't bring my poles for the first lap at least (~35 km) Bad mistake ;) After the prologue we set out on the first of six laps on a ~26 km course which included the same path that we had run on the prologue.

There had been a one hour time limit on the prologue and it came as a chock to me that the clock said 0:52 when we ended it parsing the main aid station / start / finish of the race. I realized that there wouldn't be any time for messing around in this race. I didn't stop a the aid station I just continued out on the first lap just like Kåre who I ran with at the time.

I constantly ate from my energy stash which consisted of Clif bars and blocks and GU gels. I had to eat whenever it was possible to get all the energy I needed per hour. I constantly was on the verge of vomiting with all the food in my stomach but managed to keep every thing inside and it never became a performance issue. I never had a energy problem during the race at all due to this approach! \o/

First part of the lap took us the same way as the prologue except a little extra trip around the highest part of the cliffs next to the 'Opal søen'. Next we went South parsed the Hammers Hus ruins and headed up the 700+ stair steps. Awesomeness! Down again, Up again .. bedrock, rocks, green fields with scattered bedrock, beach, stairs .. and a little bit of tar. At some point we came to stretch they have added only this year. A the start it had a dedicated warning sign saying something like 'Be aware dangerous path coming up' (shorter and to the point though!). I didn't like that path at all. It was very narrow and steep. I'm a big tall man that needs room :) If it had been raining it would have been slippery and muddy as hell .. luckily the weather was great :) It was a major slow down point for me though. At this point SLG suddenly parsed me from behind. I think she was a little surprised to see me there, but I had started out faster than she had obviously.

Once I reached the bottom of the path I noticed a familiar cup laying on the ground. It was SLG's. I knew that meant trouble since the cup was part of our mandatory equipment and it was needed to get any liquid in the aid stations. I quickly picked up the cup and started the hunt. I saw her a number of times through the next km's but never managed to catch up with her. Instead I told the first official I saw about the cup and he made sure that she was informed at the next aid station were I would leave it for her.

During this hunt the path took us through the largest gravel pit hill I have ever seen (in Denmark). I totally wanted that to be placed in my local gravel pit where I do a lot of my training :) Soon after I reached 'Jons kapel' the seconds after SLG had left. 'Jons kapel' had a long very steep stair that took you down to the sea where you had to ring a bell and then return to the top and the second of the two aid stations in the race. There I dropped the cup for SLG to pick up later and could start running my normal cruise pace again.

The path back went North to finish the lap at the main aid station where the race had started hours earlier. Constantly changing from one awesome scenery to the next. Technical challenging but _awesome_ to the max.

I started the race in a pair of New Balance MT110 but due to the very open mesh they filled with sand during the prologue. I had noticed this early on and had planned to replace them when I returned to my drop bag and decided the ignore the discomfort it gave me until then. After 30 km I could feel that the problem shouldn't be ignored anymore. My heel was burning and when I removed the sock I could see a nice blister forming. I quickly covered it with Vaseline and hoped it wouldn't get worse before I get to my drop bag. During the next km's I could feel the burning decrease \o/. The Vaseline had done its magic :)

Just before I reach the aid station I had a quickly hello with SLG where I told her about the cup. "Ahh that was you!" "Yep, who else would have recognized the cup and hunted you down to get it to you, SLG ;)"

Once in the aid station I quickly got something to drink and replaced the shoes, socks and shirts. The sand had worn large holes in the socks .. and I wasn't impressed by the design that New Balance had chosen for that shoe. Instead I jumped into a old pair of Asics Kayano 18 with my feet covered in Vaseline :)

I was told that the next cut off time was 9 hours which I quickly calculated into the fact that I had to run the next lap 20 minutes faster than the one I just had finished. With no time to eat the sandwich I was offered I quickly raced out of the aid station and ran up the hills like a bat out of hell. Oh .. and I brought with me my poles :) Jan had come to greet me and tried to take my picture but I had to run as fast as possible and hadn't any time to pose (Sorry, Jan!).

I gave it all I had. I hadn't brought with me a GPS so I couldn't keep a precise count on how far I had run and how far I still had to run to make it in time. One of my friends who had run it before had told me that the second aid station was about half way on the lap. So when I arrived there with 2 hours before the cut off time I thought myself safe. Sadly as mentioned they had changed the route this year and which meant that instead of the 12 km I thought I had left ... I had closer to 18 km. As I got closer and closer to the main aid station which I knew I had to run past and complete the part we had used for the prologue I realized the mistake. The sun had already set as I ran past the aid station. The owners from Tine's Gjestehûz was there and greeted me and asked how I felt .. I wasn't feeling to good at the time. I was starting to get cold and I knew that I in no way could make it in time for the cut.

photo: Tine's Gjestehûs

As the night sky went black and I had to turn on my head lamp (which I had tried to avoid to save the time it took to find it in my bag) I was feeling really really cold. I ran when possible but that section was very technical and I had to slow down to a walk many places. As I got closer to the aid station I met the runners going out on their next lap including SLG. She asked how I was and I told her the two things I had in mind "I'm cold and I've passed the cut off time". She looked awesome .. like a amazon warrior queen out on a hunt .. totally focused and with a surplus of energy. I don't think she understood what I was saying between the lines (I'm gonna get cut) or maybe she did.. anyway she gave me a little cheer and then we went opposite directions again. I had been shivering af cold but I got more and more numb and after a while I couldn't really feel the cold anymore .. which was a weird feeling since I knew I was cold.  As I got closer to the aid station I met Kåre. He asked me how I was and I told him that I just needed to get some food and some heat and I would take it from there.

I reached the aid station and that *short* talk I had had with Kåre had given me new hope that I might avoid the cut... but as soon as I had reached my drop bag I was contacted by one of the race directors who said what I already knew. "This is how it goes. In 10 minutes you have to be out of here!" I looked at him and said that that wasn't going to happen, since I really needed to get some heat / dry clothes / and food before going somewhere. "That is your choice!" and so it was. I helped him take the chip of my shoes while I heard someone else saying .. "Kim, I'm also out". I got handed some hot food and got some blankets warped around me .. and then I started freezing again ;) After the first meal I got some really hot soup and I started feeling great again but by now I was out of the race.

I packed my stuff, picked up my drop bag .. said good bye and walked back to Allinge. I was satified that I had done my best and didn't regretted how it had gone. What a great day it had been!

Once back at Tine's Gjestehûs I did my best to give SLG's friends a update how she was doing before getting a bath and some sleep.

Next day I was informed that Kåre had also been cut along with a lot of others. He was in a much better shape than me and was far more experienced. The race this year was truly harder than ever.

Not even for a single moment have I regretted any thing that went on during or after the race. It was a great experience with some great people. SLG made it all the way to the finish and I am very proud of her.

If I'm ever gonna have a chance to finish the Hammer Trail .. I have to get faster .. a lot faster! :) I had expected it to be more of a grind than a race.. Maybe next year.

Heading home with Kåre

Saturday, April 27, 2013

The suffering

So it has clearly been a while.

A lot of things have happen both at work and privately. I've found it harder to get the amount of running done that I would like to. Most days I've been the one turning the lights off at the office and my girls growing up needs their dad to be present just as much as I need them.

I recently ran my third official ultra. 60k from one corner of Bornholm to the opposite. Parts of my performance was great but mentally I wasn't ready .. by far.

During winter I had lost my team of 5 employees. People I had worked with for years and whom I trusted to solve any task and face any problem with me. But due to a number of different reasons I had found myself suddenly alone. These had been my friends as much a colleagues and the unwanted solitude hit hard. Perhaps harder than I realize even now many months later.

The ultra was my first official race for half a year and hadn't it been because of a dear friend of mine (SLG) I wouldn't even had joined it. Most of my runs had been short'ish (20-35k) and had been run in solitude and at  what ever pace felt good that day. Running an official race and paying for it .. had seemed a waste of time and money. Put on the shoes and run out the front door to return 2 hours later was the type of running that made sense for me.

I traveled to the race with SLG and her husband SR in their car and we even stayed a the same 'motel' during the race (not the same room!). What a lovely couple! They are clearly nerdy when it comes to running (and life in general) but something about them made me feel at peace.

It was great being away from home (and work) and being with people of a kindred spirit (not just SLG and SR but all the people we meet).

So what happened a the race .. well. I fucked up. When I ran I ran and did it great. But I didn't handle the problems I met all that well. I ran in my minimalistic shoes (New Balance Minimus MT10) and 15k in I managed to kick the bedrock. Instantly it left like I had broken a toe and even though I kept running it kept bugging my consciousness for the next 10k .. instead of just ignoring it. After 30k I meet 'the wall' and started feeling the transition from burning sugar to burning fat. I really need to get better filling my body with food/energy during the run. Later I started getting stomach cramps and feeling a painful jolt to the stomach with every step I ran. Instead of just ignoring the pain and make a fight of it I gave into it and tried to ease it away by walking and eating some fruits I had brought with me.

When I entered the only aid station at 38k my stomach was killing me and I used a shitload of time eating and drinking before hitting the trail again.

For the next 10-15k I was flying but then .. instead of fighting my way through the last 5-10k I eased them out by slowing to a walk far too often .. especially when I had become lost (which happened a bit too often).

When I finally made it to the finish line I wasn't really a happy camper. I felt everything sucked and couldn't really remember why but blamed my energy intake and the lack of markings. My Garmin said that out of the more than 8 hours (nearly 9) I had used .. I hadn't been moving for nearly an hour.

The next day I went on a spontaneous 9k run with some of the others (most of them top 10) and felt great. Something told me that if I could feel this great the day after feeling that bad mentally. I probably hadn't pushed myself hard enough physically.

Running 9k in jeans, jacket and 3 layers of shirts. (photo by SR)

In the days after I got home doing runs where I really pushed myself physically .. to remind myself that suffering is OK even for km after km.

I've set a couple of PR's lately.

None the less I in no way fell ready for my first 100 mile race which is taking place in less than a week. I have however committed myself to run and keep running until being cut. I can't imaging that I'll be able to reach the finish line in time since last year only 4 people did but I'm ready to reset what suffering really is.

Friday, October 5, 2012

Snow of awe and horror

I recently was in Norway to run in the Norwegian mountains with a local colleague who wanted to show me the most beautiful parts of this wonderful country. It would be a trip that took me to the darkest edges of my mind. I had never realized how deep my fear of heights was. Having been both a sailplane pilot and boulder climber I was very surprised to feel it as intense as I was about to feel it in these Norwegian mountains.

Rondane, Norway. In awe!
Heading out for a run expecting single tracks.
Hitting the first climb. Thinking hmm .. where is the track?
White out! My colleague had left me behind thinking 'we are running let me keep up the pace'.
The climb maxes at 60+ degrees. The rocks are slippery with snow.
I have NO idea where to go or what is coming.
My fear of heights kicks in and turns into 'horror'. I could not believe it.
What had I got myself into? I had NO experience climbing in these conditions
and felt my feet slip time and time again.
Going down was not an option .. only way is up! A few steps at a time.

First peak reached. Vinjeronden, 2044 meter above sea level.
Rejoined with my colleague I'm doing my best to ignore my fear of heights.
At the moment of this picture I still hope/thought there is as track down but actually the only
way forward is up. Soon I'll have to move on and face my fear again.
It is impossible to explain how gutting a 'phobia' can be if you have not tried it.
I felt numb to the core of my soul, every step was a mentally challenge.
Rondeslottet, 2. highest peak in Norway, 2178 meter above sea level.
I wish that I had been able to enjoy this at the time
but I was totally focused on keeping my fear of heights
under control. I had clung to every rock I passed on my way
up having expected to loose my foothold every second in the snow.
Never having been here before I trusted nothing beneath my feet.
It had been snowing that night and after we had been there
people was advised not to climb this peak due to the snow.
White out. Wrong turn heading for Styggebotn = trouble.
Feeling relieved heading down thinking the worst is over. The weather
was constantly changing from clear to white out (being inside fog/a cloud).

Time to eat. Chili con Carne! First water of the day,
fresh from the mountains behind me. After we ate we headed west
only to discover that the Styggebotn valley ended in a deadly
2-300 meter vertical drop. The nice thing about this valley was
it gave us a chance to actually run again :)

'Dead end'. With 2 hours left before sunset no flash/head lights
and with yet one peak to cross turning back is NOT an option.
Trying to make it cross a slippery and very steep mountain side
(the one you can see behind me in the next picture) is the only
way out. Fear was immense but it was clearly the only option.  

Behind me is the mountain side we crossed. As you see it don't look that nice
but we made it across and down. We quickly ran back south and
started the final climb of the day.
Checking the map to see what is coming.
It it getting darker and darker as the top gets closer but at
least there is an actual single track = no fear! The trigger
of my fear of height is when I loose confidence in what is beneath
my feet not the height it self. 

Heading down. Really tired after 10+ hours on the move.
I thought we were heading for a run on single tracks like I knew
them from my run in Spain. I never had expected what we
ended up doing. My colleague being an experienced 'Fjell' runner
never saw it as a problem ;)

What a trip. 22 km, 2000+ elevation gain. Only thing that
kept me from 'panic' was a constant mental focus on doing
what was needed.

A fear of heights is as many other phobias irrational and very hard to control. I was constantly doing my very best at keeping panic at a distance. I knew that I had to move on no matter how large my fear was. The height it self was never the issue, the trigger point is not feeling able to trust what was beneath my feet. When I felt stranded alone on a very steep, snow cover, mountain side without know what was coming or where my colleague was and feeling stones slightly move when I stepped on them, I felt a blow to my guts. I had to sit down and gather my thoughts. Panic was never and option, neither was going back. Only way was forward even if it was step by step.

This trip was hard in every way mentally and physically. But is was more rewarding than anything else I can imagine. I hope to be back someday and I hope that I will have even more control of my fear. At some point I might even be able to feel no fear at all, climbing up a steep mountain side covered with snow, stepping on constantly sliding rocks and looking up to 800 meters straight down.

I am very grateful to my colleague for showing me this wonderful place and the anger I felt on that very first climb where I was left behind have long gone. He didn't knew my fear (how could he I didn't even myself) and  since we had talked of running he gave it all he had climbing as fast as he could. He had put a lot of time, energy and even money into making this a great weekend. Thank you, Frode.

Frode and I. His ability to run fast on top of rocks are truly amazing.
I guess that it is partly from being Norwegian and having been
running around the in the 'Fjell' since age 7. Anyway .. he rock!